PDR reading with TT

This is a reading with Onyx's spread to review a PDR and see where its going. Its one I've done before when I working with the DPO, but I havent done it with the TT yet!

Although there is the possibility of drawing more than one card a position, I dont want to confuse the picture. so I'll draw one card each position, and then see what the CI will be (although a bit jumbled as its more cards than my usual 3!).

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Position One: How am I progressing with my PDR?
Position Two: Why do I need to do this PDR?
Position Three: What problem am I facing with my PDR?
Position Four: Where do I need to focus on developing in my PDR?
Position Five: What can I gain from this PDR?


Position One: How am I progressing with my PDR? 4 of wands
Well I feel me and the TT are getting on famously! There is that gateway feeling, an attraction that was so strong that meant even my DPO knew that it couldnt compete. Whilst I love decks like the Deviant Moon, I couldnt read with it every day as its special charm will be gone. The TT however is someone I can talk to everyday, share the mundane and profound together.
Em has in the book about the figures making a house, but I see it as gateway with a roof over, security, foundation and a joining of where we've been to where im going, with the TT at my side :)

Position Two: Why do I need to do this PDR? 4 of pents (mi)
Why does anyone need to do a PDR, to spend time on one deck more than others, to just get a good developing relationship. Its not a selfish gripping on to one deck like an Intensive Deck Study (or what was once known as a One Deck Wonder when I did it years ago with the Druidcraft). Its something that allows for a bit of sharing.
Also, I think it can refer to my deck buying that when through a crazy period not too long ago (4 decks in less than week is going some!) and I feel the 4 of Pents is asking me what exactly do I use tarot for, why do I go made and collect? Why do I see a deck that I know its currently 'hot' and go OH I MUST HAVE. Its just not good for me. Its about the materialistic vs the spiritual.
Also, it could highlight that I started with the TT in preparation for the TO being released, and its making me realise that the TT is a fabulous deck that I have spent time with to learn properly.. for its own sake, not coz of the new deck.

Position Three: What problem am I facing with my PDR? 5 of swords (mi)
hmm this stumps me..the figure here has mostly shattered swords around him, and hes picking at one. Its almost like he's mourning the loss and not happy with the one sword he has left.
Ya know, this might be about me feeling Im rubbish at reading the TT. I really admire Emily Carding, how she created such an inspiring deck and she sees such fabulous things in the CIs that Im only just learning to see. And well, I guess I get a bit self-defeatist about it all. I mean, I'll be crap so why do I bother kinda thing. This is such a stupid perspective to have, but its one thats there deep down, and im slightly embarressed to even put it here on the screen. BUT gotta be honest.

Position Four: Where do I need to focus on developing in my PDR? Ace of Pentacles (mi)
Just being practical, doing readings, working and playing with the deck..letting the symbols speak to me.
It could also reflect a new posession of the TO when it comes out ;)
Also, a relationship with a deck builds over time, of practical application etc. Not just the 'one' you can read instantly from the box and give spellbinding readings with. I know this takes hard work, but its a lesson I seem to need to focus on and relearn. The start of something new if I work at it, nurture it.

Position Five: What can I gain from this PDR? Knight of Pents (mi)
Its about being slow and steady, going forward and keeping using the deck. Learning and exploring through practical application. I feel that sometimes with the DPO, that I was focusing on the magic of the plants that I wasnt reading it, so it made it difficult to read for every day type subjects, yet brilliant for magical/dream ideas.
So this is something more giving, more to do with working...

The base card was Judgement the phoenix from the flames. And the TT is a deck resurrection for me. I bought this deck when it was published, and was EAGER to play with it, but I got distracted by other decks that appeared. I did my usual flash in the pan kinda NEW DECK glee and then it got put at the bottom of the pile when another new deck appeared and appeared. Which is something I am curbing right now because I know my addiction is getting too far.




Looking at the CI I can see all the figures in the right of the card, apart from that 5 of Swords, and I feel thats just my regret really I couldnt have done more with my DPO when I was PDRing with it. I wanted to do loads of meditations with the plants etc. But I need to let that go, or put that idea on a shelf for another day if its important.

The CI makes me look positive at all the lessons and learnings coming to me. I feel perhaps the TT will be a PDR for a while, with or without the TO! And thats surprising to me.

magical reading

OK..

So, ive got an issue (aint I always, always the one with the problem, thats me! LOL) and so I seek my DPO to shed some light on whats occuring :)

Q - Tell me about this blockage I have about ritual at the moment?
The spread is one Ive just knocked up.

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Card 1 - the present, what my problem is? Borage
Im staring at that sword.. I think my problem is Im being too 'gentle'. The purpose of ritual is to make communion with the Gods, to work on realising the magick within and without and sometimes that means doing a bit of 'magick' of your own, be it a simple meditation and feeling the energies or chanting mumbo jumbo.
And... Maybe somewhere along the line I've forgotten that. I've got 'safe' too scared to take the sword out of the scabbard and prove my worth to the Gods and thats that are listening.
Ive just looked at the reversal meanings in the book - and it says about Rosemary and how sometimes we forget what is important...
well, I think I forgot something pretty important where ritual is concerned.
Why have I forgotten? Why have I become a bit too 'softly softly'? Folk that know me know Im nothing of the sort in ritual usually lol.

Card 2 - Why do I have this problem, whats the lesson? Plantian
Hmmm OK this is interesting.. I think its reflecting something important. Recently over recent weeks I've been doing more ritual indoors for a varity of reasons, yet for years nearly all my rituals have been outside, in places of power. So the environment is why.
But I used to do rituals indoors all the time... its never been a problem then.
Perhaps also, in the change of environment I have forgotten that even indoors is a sacred place, a part of nature for we are alive in our homes and so part of Nature, part of divinity, its not like the Goddess stops at the door and goes 'oh, no entry for me!' LOL.

So.. its place, its about what I think about that place... and then remembering what the ritual is there for, and that communion can happen anywhere, not just by trees or around sacred stones.

Card 3 - How do I overcome the problem/learn the lesson? Juniper
Ok, its a mind thing.. its about realising what is within is without and without is within.
Like the crane bag that holds all the magical items of Albion, I AM the thing that has all the magic inside me. Ritual is just a guise, a format to open up that connection and let it all shine through. But its nothing to do with place, what Im wearing (or not), its about perspective, about realising it all comes from within. Sod how recently the room was vacuumed lol.

Card 4 - Anything else to share and enlighten me? Chamomile
Chillax girl... So your getting your head around different ideas, different ways of working. But if you get stressed out that how are the words of the Gods meant to shine and flow through?
Be relaxed, be open, the details arent important (even if they are important to you) Im not going to 'prove' anything extra to the Gods if my heart and mind is not open to commune with them.

Wow DPO , your a legend :D

Project X and Project Y.

Oooh I did a quick reading whilst I was musing about project Y here and here

One thing that I really want to focus on is something I said 'Thats how I feel, happy yet charged for all the stuff thats about to happen or even not happen. But I know that what happens is meant to be and what falls at the wayside will be deadwood. ' when pondering about Project Y.

It seems that project X isnt going to happen, but ya know, these things happen and now Project Y is looking promising. And to be honest, I thought it was going to be the lesser of the two options. LOL. I shouldnt judge things should I, the DPO, Project Y etc.
So what is? Aaaah that is a secret, but its something awesome and I feel really happy, full of positive charge like the Fern said in that other reading I did.

So I thought I'd try Gazel's spread to focus on it a bit more deeply.

The Situation - Ivy
Something that nourishes and feeds us all in the darkness. Ivy offers a support network, offers a way of protection through the lifeforce and with what 'feels right'. However, Ivy is a plant of restriction also, to have ties that bind. But that can be a positive thing if they are ones you accept and can trust in.
There is also Ivy and the moon, and we know my obsession with the moons. Project Y is from that lunacy and is me letting it flow, being liberated to go deeper.


The Challenge - Clover
To balance the learning with the art, to be aware of the proeject and yet keeping it with all the other things that inspire me and nurture me. They can all go into the pool if they are positive and nurturing. Be aware of the eggs I put in my basket.
I wonder if Clover is offering the idea of an extra leaf doesnt mean more luck - so be aware of putting too much on my plate. But when everything is so inspiring, its hard not to!
Also, I think part of it is to assimilate all that knowledge into one thing. Its like the project is full of nuts of inspiration, that I need to chew on, that I need to swim and absorb the inspiration to 'get it'. Might feel overwhelming and like a needle in the hay stack, but thers lynchpin needed to understand it. It will be a mystery, a recieved revelation, the feeling of it all 'clicking' in. And study as you like, sometimes it just needs good old LUCK.

PDR review reading.

Its been ages since I've played with my DPO. It seems ages since I was even outside under the full moon in the snow, cleansing its bag and spread cloth. Its with a touch of nerves that I pick up my DPO this evening. How will we fair now I've been ill for so long and not played with it. I tried to pick it up the other evening, but it just wasnt happening and the plants just said 'leave it out' lol.

So, Ive had to do a centering and focusing practice before even opening the deck bag tonight. But that feels appropriate. To put the 'vibes' of illness at the door and let the flowers of the plants sing to me something hopeful.

So I finally get a chance to play with Onyx's tweaking of a previous spread, tweaked with the Primary Deck Reflections in mind.. Onyx's post for the spread here

The spread..

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Position One: How am I progressing with my PDR? Cuckoo Pint
Well, the card shows that Im making a real progress with the PDR, far more so that I ever thought I was. If I think back to how I was very sketchy in my aims when I set up this blog - yet my experiences and the readings I've had with the DPO have come on really well. I've been able to go with my intuition a bit more and let the plants speak to me.
Cuckoo Pint I also think of like the Lovers, the union of male and female, the fizzle of attraction and how that plant is just saying 'come and get me baby' lol. And I have had some decks that have battled for my affections (one Deviant Moon) and other interests and flu that have been also in the background. Yet its been a very good constant for me.
I think we are a really good match! I think its also because the plants want to permeate through all the levels of your being. Its not just an oracle deck to find out what will happen with X or who will ask me out on valentines day. The plants energies are there to really work their magick on you. And Im more than happy for them to do so.

Position Two: Why do I need to do this PDR? Nettle
OK... heres the stinger. Part of my deeeeep down reasons to play with this deck was to fight against an assumption I'd made about the DPO. I thought 'Philip, Stephanie and Bill had a fab idea with this deck, but plants just don't 'read' the same way other types of oracles do'. And boy did they prove me wrong! So its that shedding of my misconceptions, that my own issue with it had created a problem, like people who think of nettles as evil stinging plants yet are marvelled when they drink its tea, or make nettle string etc. Its an amazing plant.
Also, I've had a few stingers in 2010 so far. And the DPO has been a wonderful processing tool of whats been happening. Whether this blog is a wonderful processing tool is something to be debated about in my head as I progress with my PDR. But yes, its definitely good for me to do this regular practice and reflection with the plants.

Position Three: What problem am I facing with my PDR? Vervain
The Hare on this card is looking at me.. or rather looking at me and wanting to LEAP back into the Nettle or the Cuckoo Pint cards. A lot has happened to me over the past few weeks, both on the inner and outer realms, both to do with PDR and not to do with PDR. And thats groovy - thats the wonderful mystery of what life is all about.
I guess what my problem is that sometimes I get so excited and want to LEAP OFF to other ideas, other possible areas of study, that I forget that solid foundation. These changes that have happened to be recently I really feel are due to the work Im doing with the DPO, reflective connecting process of Spirit and my Self - and thats a very sacred process not to be forgotten by the new shiney thing in the corner (yes I have short attention spans and magpie tendencies). Also, I get an idea and want to leap off making connections that never get finished.
SO Vervain is saying this is where I have felt connected, nourished and empowered, and this is where I need to keep working, putting more time in with the cards. Not to be forgotten.
I think especially as March is looking to be a particularly 'mad march' (get it, mad march, hare.. oh nevermind LOL), its a reminder to be focused.
Thank you Vervain :)

Position Four: Where do I need to focus on developing in my PDR? Yarrow
First words in my head - divination.
OK I've shown that DPO is more than a reading deck, its more than pretty set of pictures, BUT i do need to do more readings for others with it. It was part of my plan when doing this PDR and so it should continue to be!
Yarrow and Nettle both have snakes... perhaps this is something I need to consider? Hmph. Yarrow is not a card I 'feel' a lot for, apart from the arrow thing, but I feel that doesnt apply so much here. Hmph some more. I think the snake is significant.

Position Five: What can I gain from this PDR? Clover
*sings roll me over...*cough* maybe not..
Well Im also stumped on this card. Ok, deep breathe and feel..
The card is like a little piece of faery in the woods, an untouched place by man. The blessed 4 leafed clovers are hidden in the card but I can see them. Its like I've been on a quest to find one thing, and found something so much greater.
So here is an idea of small caterpillers big butterflies grow.
The Salmon is a fish of wisdom and inspiration but only by the food it eats and the waters it lives in. So I need to fill my PDR with good positive ideas so that positive outcomes come from it.
And not to forget that my personal life affects my relationship with the DPO. If I have illness then that will affect the DPO and my PDR - and I really did not want to play when I had the flu. So there is a feeling of deep respect and sharings of energies that needs to be appreciated.
The books keywords of Wisdom, health, good fortune, venom, liberation and assimilation all roll into what I have felt. However the words dont justify the feeling. There is this deeper energy work with my PDR experience of the DPO that is really important to me in ways I know and cant even begin to know. That might sound weird pagan hippy shit - but its how I roll!

The base card (also a base card, plants have ROOTS ya know!) is Woad another old friend and ally here in DPO land.
The PDR keeps me on the straight and narrow, the stem of the plant vs the umbrella like nature of the roots and flowering point of the card. I was speaking to an archaeologist friend of mine about spears, and how with a spear you have to hold your nerve, you are getting up close to your prey and you need be bloody bonkers to do it considering prey like the Wild Boar.
LOL Maybe Im bonkers trying to hunt myself? Well they do say God helps those that helps themselves...


BBQ anyone? :P


So... what does that mean for my February plans with the PDR.
1) Keep it as the DPO. Its just working so well, its going somewhere interesting and I want to find out where it goes
2) Its a really good nurturing rock for me to learn the DPO, to reflect on myself, but also to have a connection with those who are also following a PDR experience on AT. So its that reason I want to 're-open' the doors to the blog and celebrate that connection. You have to be in the web to feel part of it.
3) continue holding myself to the outline set out in post 2 of this wee blog. Its working, Bramble is a good 'get off your arse and do something coz its good for you' energy to have around me at the mo :)

Groovy! My PDR chums will be so happy :D

broken legs and pancakes

I feel really flat today, Im having a pancake day. I just feel blah.

Last night I had a very odd dream that keeps replaying on my mind. I was on a swing, and it took me a while before I got on the swing of the swing. I was going backwards when someone came and walked infront of the swing. I think it had been a game in the dream of them running across the swing as I swung forwards.
Anyways, for some reason, before I got anywhere near them they fell on the floor and broke their leg. It was a proper nasty break, as if i'd broken a pencil. I could see all inside the leg, the marrow, the vessels, the tendons and muscles.. it was quite gorey but even in the dream I had a nurse's curiousity of 'ooooh so thats what it really looks like' lol.

So, I want to probe what this dream means. Asking my newly consecrated DPO and its bag and cloth, I got the reply of Vervain (top card) and Lady's Mantle (bottom card).
Vervain keeps saying to me something about needing to break things apart. To really get a true idea of what is happening, of what something is, you need to pull it apart, smash it open and see how it works.
I keep getting the idea of eggs cracking as well, eggs are only symbols of rebirth and new life because we know inside is a new life growing - needing to be smashed open to come out.
The book mentions a joining together and a reconsiliation - about how offerings and sacrifice reconnect us to the Gods and to the Magic of the land. Maybe I need to go out and make an offering to put the broken leg back together again?

Lady's Mantle is an interesting one. I feel that its first reply is I've done well to read about this dream, to look deeper into it and find out its meaning, its healing, its potential. Dreams, like dew drops can sometimes be easy to forget about, walk through to get on with the rest of the day. I have felt this one was imporant to read about..
It could also be another message to do with the recent vibes in my life to connect deeper to the Goddess, the subconscious, the Moon etc.

By the Gods these plants are good!

I also desperately want to do a PDR reading over my experiment so far! But that'll also wait till later. Hopefully I'll have some get-go today to organise myself!