magical reading

OK..

So, ive got an issue (aint I always, always the one with the problem, thats me! LOL) and so I seek my DPO to shed some light on whats occuring :)

Q - Tell me about this blockage I have about ritual at the moment?
The spread is one Ive just knocked up.

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Card 1 - the present, what my problem is? Borage
Im staring at that sword.. I think my problem is Im being too 'gentle'. The purpose of ritual is to make communion with the Gods, to work on realising the magick within and without and sometimes that means doing a bit of 'magick' of your own, be it a simple meditation and feeling the energies or chanting mumbo jumbo.
And... Maybe somewhere along the line I've forgotten that. I've got 'safe' too scared to take the sword out of the scabbard and prove my worth to the Gods and thats that are listening.
Ive just looked at the reversal meanings in the book - and it says about Rosemary and how sometimes we forget what is important...
well, I think I forgot something pretty important where ritual is concerned.
Why have I forgotten? Why have I become a bit too 'softly softly'? Folk that know me know Im nothing of the sort in ritual usually lol.

Card 2 - Why do I have this problem, whats the lesson? Plantian
Hmmm OK this is interesting.. I think its reflecting something important. Recently over recent weeks I've been doing more ritual indoors for a varity of reasons, yet for years nearly all my rituals have been outside, in places of power. So the environment is why.
But I used to do rituals indoors all the time... its never been a problem then.
Perhaps also, in the change of environment I have forgotten that even indoors is a sacred place, a part of nature for we are alive in our homes and so part of Nature, part of divinity, its not like the Goddess stops at the door and goes 'oh, no entry for me!' LOL.

So.. its place, its about what I think about that place... and then remembering what the ritual is there for, and that communion can happen anywhere, not just by trees or around sacred stones.

Card 3 - How do I overcome the problem/learn the lesson? Juniper
Ok, its a mind thing.. its about realising what is within is without and without is within.
Like the crane bag that holds all the magical items of Albion, I AM the thing that has all the magic inside me. Ritual is just a guise, a format to open up that connection and let it all shine through. But its nothing to do with place, what Im wearing (or not), its about perspective, about realising it all comes from within. Sod how recently the room was vacuumed lol.

Card 4 - Anything else to share and enlighten me? Chamomile
Chillax girl... So your getting your head around different ideas, different ways of working. But if you get stressed out that how are the words of the Gods meant to shine and flow through?
Be relaxed, be open, the details arent important (even if they are important to you) Im not going to 'prove' anything extra to the Gods if my heart and mind is not open to commune with them.

Wow DPO , your a legend :D