Although there is the possibility of drawing more than one card a position, I dont want to confuse the picture. so I'll draw one card each position, and then see what the CI will be (although a bit jumbled as its more cards than my usual 3!).
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*1***5*
Position One: How am I progressing with my PDR?
Position Two: Why do I need to do this PDR?
Position Three: What problem am I facing with my PDR?
Position Four: Where do I need to focus on developing in my PDR?
Position Five: What can I gain from this PDR?
Position One: How am I progressing with my PDR? 4 of wands
Well I feel me and the TT are getting on famously! There is that gateway feeling, an attraction that was so strong that meant even my DPO knew that it couldnt compete. Whilst I love decks like the Deviant Moon, I couldnt read with it every day as its special charm will be gone. The TT however is someone I can talk to everyday, share the mundane and profound together.
Em has in the book about the figures making a house, but I see it as gateway with a roof over, security, foundation and a joining of where we've been to where im going, with the TT at my side :)
Position Two: Why do I need to do this PDR? 4 of pents (mi)
Why does anyone need to do a PDR, to spend time on one deck more than others, to just get a good developing relationship. Its not a selfish gripping on to one deck like an Intensive Deck Study (or what was once known as a One Deck Wonder when I did it years ago with the Druidcraft). Its something that allows for a bit of sharing.
Also, I think it can refer to my deck buying that when through a crazy period not too long ago (4 decks in less than week is going some!) and I feel the 4 of Pents is asking me what exactly do I use tarot for, why do I go made and collect? Why do I see a deck that I know its currently 'hot' and go OH I MUST HAVE. Its just not good for me. Its about the materialistic vs the spiritual.
Also, it could highlight that I started with the TT in preparation for the TO being released, and its making me realise that the TT is a fabulous deck that I have spent time with to learn properly.. for its own sake, not coz of the new deck.
Position Three: What problem am I facing with my PDR? 5 of swords (mi)
hmm this stumps me..the figure here has mostly shattered swords around him, and hes picking at one. Its almost like he's mourning the loss and not happy with the one sword he has left.
Ya know, this might be about me feeling Im rubbish at reading the TT. I really admire Emily Carding, how she created such an inspiring deck and she sees such fabulous things in the CIs that Im only just learning to see. And well, I guess I get a bit self-defeatist about it all. I mean, I'll be crap so why do I bother kinda thing. This is such a stupid perspective to have, but its one thats there deep down, and im slightly embarressed to even put it here on the screen. BUT gotta be honest.
Position Four: Where do I need to focus on developing in my PDR? Ace of Pentacles (mi)
Just being practical, doing readings, working and playing with the deck..letting the symbols speak to me.
It could also reflect a new posession of the TO when it comes out ;)
Also, a relationship with a deck builds over time, of practical application etc. Not just the 'one' you can read instantly from the box and give spellbinding readings with. I know this takes hard work, but its a lesson I seem to need to focus on and relearn. The start of something new if I work at it, nurture it.
Position Five: What can I gain from this PDR? Knight of Pents (mi)
Its about being slow and steady, going forward and keeping using the deck. Learning and exploring through practical application. I feel that sometimes with the DPO, that I was focusing on the magic of the plants that I wasnt reading it, so it made it difficult to read for every day type subjects, yet brilliant for magical/dream ideas.
So this is something more giving, more to do with working...
The base card was Judgement the phoenix from the flames. And the TT is a deck resurrection for me. I bought this deck when it was published, and was EAGER to play with it, but I got distracted by other decks that appeared. I did my usual flash in the pan kinda NEW DECK glee and then it got put at the bottom of the pile when another new deck appeared and appeared. Which is something I am curbing right now because I know my addiction is getting too far.
Looking at the CI I can see all the figures in the right of the card, apart from that 5 of Swords, and I feel thats just my regret really I couldnt have done more with my DPO when I was PDRing with it. I wanted to do loads of meditations with the plants etc. But I need to let that go, or put that idea on a shelf for another day if its important.
The CI makes me look positive at all the lessons and learnings coming to me. I feel perhaps the TT will be a PDR for a while, with or without the TO! And thats surprising to me.
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